Looking back and looking forward

As the year ends and the new year rolls around I look back and breathe.  I made it through a really rough year!  I am amazed that I am able to put things into thoughts, since there is so much going on in my head.  So as I try to put my thoughts down please forgive me of my randomness and jumping all over.

I had to take Rhett into the doctors before Christmas his breathing was increased, he maxed out on his oxygen at 4 liters on his tank and 5 liters on his machine at home, and even with the breathing treatment it didn't help much.  The doctor decided to put him on antibiotics we are hoping that the antibiotics help kill whatever is making him struggle more than normal.

Found out while I had Rhett at the doctors office that Nikole had or has a bladder infection again.  I was frustrated since the test was done in November and I never heard anything.  Normally isn't it: "No news is good news"?  Whatever I plan on following up to the point of harassment if this continues since the doctor wasn't sure how they even missed that to begin with.  She just finished her antibiotics and I pray that will be the end but I highly doubt that since we all know that when you are in school you don't have the freedom to use the bathroom as you like.  Well she does because of a health care plan, but like she actually will use that privilege. Yeah Right!!  At least the pills she took were horse sized and that usually dissuades her from wanting to take them again.  LOL!!

Hi-ho hi-ho back to the doctors we go!

Gavin was lucky to get sick the weekend after Christmas if being sick is lucky.  Vomiting most the day Saturday and coughing like crazy through the weekend.  Lucky child has a virus and we have to pray it goes away so he doesn't get anything else on top of this to share with his siblings.

Dylan was also a lucky little man and got an ear infection over the weekend too!  He is now on antibiotics and I am praying it goes away with this medicine so I don't have to take him back to the doctors for a while.  I mean I like the doctor and all but gosh it would be nice not to see him on a monthly basis.  At least after some ibuprofen and some numbing drops he was able to sleep through the night Saturday and cough like crazy the rest of the weekend.

The last visit to the doctors this year thanks to Gavin and Dylan.  They certainly know how to send off the year and welcome a new year.  Ok boys pull it together so we can get through the month of January without making unscheduled doctor visits.  I think I can, I think I can....

As I look forward to a new year I am planning on changing my outlook and I am planning on accomplishing so much more.  I would love to go into details but it will have to be a surprise, since I haven't set it up yet and I am not in the thick of it yet.  I can't wait to get started!  I am almost excited seeing what I can do to make this next year so much better.  One goal I have is to blog every week since things get a little busy, but I am planning on at least once a week updating the blog so that way I can keep you informed on my progress and I hope that by doing so encourages me to be better.

I hope you all have a very Happy New Year!!!

So Grateful!

I hope that you all had a most wonderful Memorial Day! I know that I had several people on my mind most of the day.

I will always remember!

Happy Holidays!!!

Ok so it has been a while since I last wrote which I am kicking myself for that reason right now. It has been a whirl wind of a holiday season for our family.

First Nikole found some Christmas presents that were from "Santa" and got in big trouble. Next Rhett and Nikole found more "Santa" presents! Ok so we did a terrible job this Christmas hiding gifts but heck you would never see them if you weren't looking!!!

But Christmas day was just awesome! I reminded the kids that the reason we celebrate Christmas is to remember what the Savior Jesus did for us. And they knew exactly what I was talking about! :) Made me so proud!! I told that that we should be very grateful for everything that we have and remember to tell the Lord everyday. You know what it works, so far every day they are saying "Thank you" in their prayers more then they were before.

On Christmas Eve I had to take Dylan to get his Synagis for RSV and while I was there I took Rhett in and he ended up getting 2 breathing treatments and then a stress that we really need to see an allergy doctor that we are seeing on the 31st. Oh the joys!! My poor boys, Dylan gets 2 shots one in each leg and Rhett gets 2 breathing treatments and to top it all off is the fact that we were at the doctors for 2 HOURS!!! Holy cow that is way long!! Now Rhett is on Drugs out the nose and I am not sure if I am going to be sending him back to school even after the break if his breathing doesn't get better I might just have to keep him home. :( The reason for that would be because his portable concentrator only puts out 3 liters at a time and at home he is on 5 liters. But when I took him to the doctors on the 24th he was sating at 92%-93% on 3 liters!!! That is so bad it isn't even funny! He really hates it when doctors say take a deep breath. He looks at me like what do they think I am doing? Hello can't you see me breathing? LOL! He cracks me up! Then they get all crazy because he isn't breathing like he should be, well duh his lungs are really really really small! He tells me all the time that the breathing treatment don't help and that the oral steroids don't help and that the inhaled steroids don't help. Well then little boy what does help? He isn't sure... He hate the fact that he has to stay inside most of the time. He hate that his oxygen hose gets caught on everything and everyone. It is making him crazy! I wish I had a place for them to play that wouldn't be a danger to their health. He wants to play with Sara outside like Nikole but knows that he can't. Sara is too strong for him and pulls him down when he is holding her collar. Meet Sara!



He loves her so much that one day before she had gotten over her separation from her family he tried to comfort her by sleeping next to her crate.





She is under that blanket in her crate. I found if I cover her she doesn't bark too much unless she really really has to go outside. LOL She is a true girl and won't go the the bathroom outside unless she has a friend to hold her hand. :) Silly dog. I just hope we can keep her, my kids love her but Rhett might be allergic to her and Nikole's cat Rosa. Nikole loves both of these animals so very much and will be so hurt if we had to get rid of them, but the doctor thinks that he is allergic to the cat for sure and that is why he is having a hard time breathing.

This is how much she loves Rosa. This is the day that she got her for her birthday almost a year ago!



This is how much she loves Sara.



Picture of Nikole and Sara after they finished running around the backyard the 2nd day or 3rd day that we had Sara.



What would happen if we had to get rid of either of these animals? :( I would be so sad for Nikole's sake. The kids are working so hard to make sure the house is clean enough that they can play with Sara in the house since she is still a puppy and looks for food all over the place.

Gavin is having mood swing after mood swing but that has been so normal for him I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. He has missed a week of school and can't wait to start again. Oh crap I need to help him with poster that he has to do for school! Oh man I totally forgot! I guess I better get on that with him Wednesday since tomorrow is booked solid.

Dylan is just loving life and learning to run and dance and throw fits that are HUGE!!! I had to put him in his crib while me and my husband made dinner because he wouldn't stop screaming and wanting to be held, and since we were both cooking over hot items neither one of us could hold him but when I picked him up he kept hitting me over and over. Can we say lack of communication! That kids has got to start signing soon before it kills me! LOL! It gets very frustrating when no one understands what he is asking for and what he wants. He is such a cutie and I have a great picture to prove it.



Look at his golden locks! He is such a cutie!! I will have to post more pictures now that he has had his hair cut.



The funny face that he is trying to show me! What a sweetheart! Love him learning!

I love my kids! They are the world to me! I would do anything I could think of to help them if it was in their best interest. I will try ot post more pictures tomorrow.